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There comes a time when relationships reach a point where commitment is made and this commitment points to the future.
Couples would like the future be something that they have always wanted it to be. When one party describes his/her version of what he/she wants his/her future to be but the other party.. does not have the same things in mind, it’s hard to ask for commitment, nor is it fair to each other if the future in his/her own mind is different than what has been described by the first party. Sometimes its about give and take, sometimes its best if they separate, but whats most important that neither party have any regrets.
When the seconnd party wishes for a temporary break to think things through, its hard for the 1st party to be totally understanding and unemotional..actually its impposible,

but there are some out there.. who understands and wishes that the second party takes his/her time and come up with a decision without regrets, some who can love so much that they are willing to let go and just trust or hope that their love will come back some day. But if the time comes and the second party…..does not return….. it is always best for the first party to do things that he/she would regret if left undone. Things like watching a movie, a present that was promised but not given, small things that were promised and not fulfilled.

And if the time comes and the second party does not return, the first party would have less regrets. It wont be entirely void of it, thats for sure, but he/she can live with the thought that he/she tried…
and giving it all, is wat it means to love someone…….sometimes..

today the auntie working donwstairs next to the church asked me.. “ei u dari mmu kan?”, “kenapa itu budak bunuh diri ar?”.. i was like… wat the hell?, how am i supposed to noe? i dun even noe the guy.. “tiada la, accident kak. aKSident…..” then i found out today.. i actually knew the guy… handsome, tall and charming.. sad…….

tomorrow got bio exam.. really dun like the lecturer….

interesting day, finished my bio assignment… den now wondering hard about the moral assignment… cuz totally blur on wat to do..
after wushu, i followed preshant and jerah go DOTA.. parked my bike outside, locked it and 3 hrs later… bike gone..
i was like. shit~.. y so stupid.. should have locked to something.. dammm… after that, dun care d…. ask them fetch me back… not even 50 meters down the road… wadda u noe! my bike was there.. lolz
looked like they tried to drag it or sumthing while riding a motorbike.. cuz i locked the wheels.. a bit of scratches here.. and there.. else, still good.. lucky rite…?

been sick for a while.. sore throat.. Philip gave some meds.. it seemed to help… oh ya.. philip is my hsemate…

had a weird dream last nite…. too indecent to post up..

been wondering about my training methods.. i’m not giving enough body conditioning to the boys here.. not enough stretching and strength training. i totally forgot about the one day for conditioning and one day for technique plan.. my legs hurt from all the stretching… anyway.. since i have decided to learn the wushu’s fellas techniques and skills.. i got to get mself to their level…. surpass them…i’ll give ninjutsu a good name… i got to gain more skills for myself… (kill kill kill)….

yesterday went gym.. but not open…den i went archery at 5.. shot one round and some alphas started making a lot of noise.. “wah.. c i got how many how many..” and “i got more den u err..”..all that crap and none of them was shooting properly… and den i went up and started shooting… (i had experience in this and the prez gave some tips..) all kena silence… wakakaka…. den they start asking me how i shoot la and teach them la.. suddenly they are so humbled eh?

that evening spent my time with the wushu fellas… nice people.. most of them.. without a doubt.. believing that wushu is the best in the world… summor ask me to quit ninjutsu and join wushu..(they didnt noe i was the instructor i guess..).. who can blame them.. its hard to get good talent this days… (self-praising here) did some jumps… wushu jumps.. stunned them a little.. the fellas didnt bother to find out more about ninjutsu.. just brushed it off when i said “we do a lot of sparring”…

i mean got good got bad la…. i admit that ninjutsu dun have their stretching regime or acrobatics.. but we dun need it cuz our art is too….”flairless”.. we fight like we are not fighting.. but if it comes down to real life.. how far can their art go? they are good actually.. their forms and strength are high but they have no knowledge of distance and angle and timing.. haiz…. well at least i’m getting what i want.. the bod to supplement ninjutsu’s practicality..

maybe later when i get better in their art and ask them to spar a bit.. some of them might join ninjutsu.. lolz

hullo all.. i’m blogging again after so long… today is my 3rd year anniversary with my girl.. but i’m in mlk.. sad case.. but i went bek last friday… spent the whole day with her at midvalley.. we ate at chilli’s..we ordered one burger and “nachos” (they actually have a better name but i forgot). TOTALLY stuffed!.. oh ya she ordered an alcoholic drink.. side effect was she slept in the KTM on the way back..
Watched pirates.. kiera was hot~~ (and she loved CPT. jack sparrow——*rolling eyes*)
And the next day we went to bon odori.. even though we were chased out when we reached… we had fun with Wei they all… they mouths really entertaining…. really wished i could stay today…

just cerita a bit on that day… wished i had slept more before the camp…. brought 3 boys with me to camp from mlk
i slept on the floor that friday nite…
the camp.. we went thru the commando course with luggage…. a small kid fell on his back.. sad…. but he kept on the whole day anyway.. nothing special this time.. just that too many people and less activity..
a lot of ‘virgins’ this time.. so the camp was a bit of a mess.. maybe i was just expecting too much…
we played “seki” …, peasants and the mounted samurai.. (ever c a horse do a side kick?)
the 3 swordsman versus 30 unarmed.. (that was sick wei).. a little sound sensitivity training.. and at nite.. war games..
this time i failed in my endeavour…
oh ya.. a junior hit me with a bokken..(more like i headbutt the bokken) fainted a little.. grew a huge bump on the head..and
got a little wacko..
later that nite we played truth or dare and cards.. it was also the nite england and brazil lost….haiz…
i missed CHEER2006 the next day…. damm… all in all… sienz… one reason was that my batch all didnt go… only ayub was there… where are u guys????

Interesting christmas this year.. first time i spend it without my family.. first time had a buffet steamboat… first time go jonker.. haha.. i’m homesick.. but i also know its a bit more exciting spending it here. I wonder how it would be spending it back at home.. i cant imagine it anymore… i dont look forward to it anymore.. i feel like an idiot.. i flunked my mid term.. did really bad.. can be salvaged la… Have to see how my finals go.. but it really is a waste if i drop points this sem.. my hair getting really long.. wanna cut it soon.. mebbe this weekend..

i promised her that i will go back.. and yet i dun feel excited about it.. y? i dun understand..

merry christmas everyone.. i hope you have it good this year..

i am confused..
how do you define infidelity? is it in action? or is it thought? the body has physical yearnings that is surpressed by mental and spiritual will..that is a fact.. so is it physical action then? mental yearnings can be controlled though..
ok its just me… i like girls.. i will admit that.. i like talking to them.. i like their company..
i have a girlfriend.. does that mean i’m being a bad bf? i may seem i’m flirting but it’s just me.. its just nice to treat girls nice.. as long as i treat her the nicest la.. people call me flower heart.. am i really?
i used to have a saying. “yan yan wai ngor, ngor wai lui yan” it means everyone for me… me for girls. (copyright)

sigh~ should i or should i not treat girls nice?

Today is a very special day for me, i made contact with an old friend, which lead to a list of more old friends. Some of them, a fleeting moment of my past, some who made an impact on my future, and one who still draws me to her even in the present..
Life is weird, i did things today that i would never thought i would ever have a chance of doing for the rest of my life.. I faced an old ghost, faced my own old feelings and took them for a ride.. And now, i feel like i can do anything.
I feel like giving my all and living without regrets is still possible..
Thank You Friend! I will never forget you for as long as i live.
You still tried to talk to me even after so long, and you still put such trust in me, its been a really long time since i felt this excited..
If you read this, good luck and god bless,